emoiam.

Hello. I lost the letter Daniel gave me today. I left it in my Biology textbook two evenings ago when i was reading it at home. I forgot to take it out and so brought it to school along with my textbook today. I am very, very disappointed and angry at myself. That letter from Daniel was written for my birthday, it really meant so much to me.

Next, for people who feel that i'm being struborn and dumb for refusing to do my 2.4, well, all i'll say is, maybe you're right, but you dont understand the relationship between me and that run. So please dont judge me just for it. For reasons you dont and i dont think you'll need nor want to know.

Thanks Jasper, for coming over to talk to me after the run when i was sitting there. I'm really grateful for what you did. And Ms Goh, for having faith and offering me a ear. Such a coincidence that i went to her church for service last sunday too. Haha..

Next things, wx, you mentioned about feeling like a second-rated friend, well, that's how i feel most of the time with this class. With Su, David, Hem, PinYi, Amantha, Jehanne and even you. But there's nothing much you can do about it, someone's friendship is not something you can force unto. Who doesnt want people to lift you up when you fail, but when people choose not to do so, there's really nothing you can do except walk on yourself.

Especially lately, i was so upset and emotional about several occurances in my life, but i dont feel the concern from members of the class. Instead, people who came and told me to cheer up or to smile more were people in school whom i dont even feel so attached to. All the concern i've had from the people in class was just a casual question made out of mannerism, not out of genuine care for me. Nevertheless, i'm trying to pull through things, and i'll make it through, because I remembered, God's here for me.

Anyway, people out there in bloggerland, you can make shuyun feel better by going to do myJohari. After which, if you wanna bitch about me, go do my Nohari too.